Inner writing journey — stop trying to control it

I’m coming to this place with [a particular work] where I’ve got to rip the thing up and start anew. Salvaging big chunks but only the stellar…the whole linear is so boring. But it’s kind of heartbreaking, too.

The more I try to think linear to organize it the more chaotic it gets, if that makes any sense. Like, it knows I’m tying to control it.

This is one of those parts of myself I’m meeting for the first time but that has always been there inside me. A way of telling a story that I labeled not acceptable because it came from inside me.

—meredith jan 2 2019