I read Kathryn Chetkovich’s short story, Appetites, (originally published in ZYZZYVA, in 1998, when it was featured in the Best American Short Stories series of that year. I wished so badly to be able to craft a story like that one. Like hers. But mostly what I felt was admiration.
Feeling admiration feels different than feeling envy.
Recently, I had heard, or remembered, or was reminded, that this woman whose story I so deeply admired, was in a relationship (like, long term) with Jonathan Franzen. Then I discovered that she’d written about the internal (and, at times, external) struggle of being in a union when both partners are writers, but only one discovers a certain kind of success and the fame that accompanies their work.
Her piece is called “Envy.” It begins like this:
“This is a story about two writers. A story, in other words, of envy.”
The essay appeared in Granta #82 in 2003. Click here for an excerpt from The Observer, also published that year.
I share the link to that essay (maybe you’ve already seen it?) because her words are powerful and honest. Because her words are inner-writing- journey relevant. And, mostly, because her essay is incredible (in a good way).
In a timeless way.
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Thank you for sharing these links. I have to admit to admiring (sometimes envying, I’ll admit it) a lot of author’s out there.
This is fantastic, honest and clean writing. Thanks so much for posting it here. I must go on, now, to read the short story you share, too.
PS. Admiration doesn’t hurt the way envy hurts, I think. I’d rather feel admiration, then (and I do!)
Anita and Sheryl: I think the feels are completely universal. And yes – admiration is so much nicer to feel.
Thanks for sharing this. I’ve never really contemplated the difference between admiration and envy before. Something to definitely chew on.
I was shacked up with a fellow scribe for almost 20 years. I know first-hand about writers envy. It’s a tough one. Look forward to checking out these links for another perspective.